They were lovers, both undergraduates. Toast of the school. The lovebirds that everybody knew in campus. They were always around each other.
One day she fell sick and he called her over to his place.
She had been to the hospital and was injected. She was very weak. Somehow she
managed to get there. And there he was, horny. She told him she was sick but he
would have none of that. He just had to relieve himself. He pinned her down,
and forced his way in. She wasn't a virgin and of course they had been intimate
countless times. But that day she said no and he didn't listen. He had his way.
She couldn't tell anyone as they would ask if they weren't lovers, and ask how
possible it was for a guy to rape his babe. She kept quiet, and never voiced
it. The next day he came apologising, and said he didn't know she was that sick
until after she left and he found the blood stained cotton wool used in
massaging the injection spot. The damage had been done.
He was her off and on boyfriend, who would be sweet this
time and sour the next. He lived out of town and they only saw once in a while.
She loved him but his attitude always put her off. He came to town one weekend
and invited her over. She knew he might want to have sex with her but she didn't
want that, so she didn't bother going. Three days later she saw her menses, and
thought it would be a good time to visit him. If they were gonna talk at all,
let sex not be in the way.
She got there, and he didn't want to talk. He wanted to have
her badly. She gave the menses excuse and he would have none of it. He knew she
had been avoiding him just so he wouldn't touch it. And menses or not, he would
have his way.
The struggle started. He had his cousins around, both male
and female. If she screamed they would hear her voice. So she kept it low. He
kept wearing condoms and she kept removing them. After the third, he told her
point blank that if she dared remove the fourth he would have her without
protection, then he had established the fact that she was indeed on her period.
He pinched amd pinched her thighs till her legs were wide apart. He tore the
panties and flung the stained sanitary pad. He had her. She was there in tears.
After the deed he brought out his wallet and mobile phone. In her presence he
deleted her number and told her he just wanted to have a last taste. Then he
brought out a passport photograph from his wallet, shoved it under her nose and
told her that was his new girlfriend, and she was prettier. And she should get
the hell out of his house. Shamefully she walked out. The cousins knew what
happened cos they heard the struggle. She couldn't tell anyone. Cos they
wouldn't believe her boyfriend raped her.
They were both out on Friday night. She drank Snap while he
drank Trophy. It was a cold night and she needed to go home and cover up. He
was being too slow with his drinks so she helped him. She got drunk. Twice on
the way home she vomited. They got home and he put her on the bed. She had
saliva in her mouth cos of the vomit and she couldn't say a word. The world was
spinning. He undressed her. He didnt think it wise to take her to the bathroom
for a cool shower, but rather he undressed and mounted her. She weakly tried
pushing him away but he shoved her hands off him. He had his way, even as she
said no.
She couldn't tell. Cos she was high with her boyfriend and
when you are high you are horny. She wanted it, as far as people were
concerned. Case closed.
Today when she picks her pen to write about them, she coins
sweet words. Sweet memories all the way, at least that's what people will read.
The deepest secrets lie within her. Some wounds never heal, we take them to our
graves.
#WhenSheSaysNoSheMeansNo
#WomenWhoCanSayNoAreTheSexiest
#NoConsentMeansRape
#ThingsThatMessUpOurPsyche
#RapistsAreKillers
- Anne Abidemi Akinnagbe
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